words of estimative probability

I can finally say I’m truly happy. I’ve found a comfort, appreciation, and love in somebody who complements my life very well. I make her happier than she’s ever been and I complement her life very well. Didn’t see it coming. Never expected to find chemistry with somebody this powerful, this natural…now or even any time soon. And it just happened. :) What a crazy path my life has taken. What a crazy, wild year it has been. I’m happy it’s going to end on a positive note for the first time in years. :)

She’s interested in me, I’m told, sometimes act like she is, but then sometimes she acts like she’s not. She hasn’t been talkative because she’s been thinking, she says. I ask her if she wants me to leave her alone for a bit. “If you wouldn’t mind,” she says. Okay. I understand. Gives me a plain “Night.” Nothing else. See her tonight. Something feels awkward. She’s not comfortable with me sitting next to her. She doesn’t look at me. She doesn’t want me to walk her home. Doesn’t stop for a hug or really to say goodbye at all. 

Okay. 

I’m losing interest.